Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Called One.

Then God said, “Let us make human beings in our image, to be like us. They will reign over the fish in the sea, the birds in the sky, the livestock, all the wild animals on the earth, and the small animals that scurry along the ground.” So God created human beings in his own image. In the image of God he created them; male and female he created them. Then God blessed them and said, “Be fruitful and multiply. Fill the earth and govern it. Reign over the fish in the sea, the birds in the sky, and all the animals that scurry along the ground.” (Genesis 1:26-28 NLT)

It's interesting to me how God places order from the beginning to the end. Every moment is intentioned for another purpose. From Adam and Eve to the Israelites and all the way up to Jesus. We see how God creates PURPOSE before he will establish you in your destiny. 

His promises are forever. I will give you houses you did not build and vineyard a you did not plant all we do is wait upon The Lord. Jericho was established before the Israelites took it. Saul was King before David was anointed, and John set the blazing trail just before it was Jesus' time... Order. God always sets order. With every life there is purpose and he plants those purposes through our dreams in our heart. 

I read popular marriage blogs or devotionals that say "a good man or wife will put aside his/her dream to take care of their family" that chasing a dream is not needed when to me that sounds contradicting to the word of God itself. From my perspective he/she wouldn't be fulfilling their destiny if they DONT pursue what's in their heart which in turn cause resentment and depression. Because we were created for more. 

In genesis chapter one we see God had established the earth. He created a purpose for Adam. He then created Adam with a specific calling. He was made in God's image Male and Female  He created them. So we know first that Adam was first called to have dominion over the purpose God has created for him and that the purpose was engraved in all he would be. A drive and passion that would never leave him. Second we read God already intended on creating his wife with specific characteristics that would enhance each other to fulfill their assignment as one. By creating him and calling him them we know right there marriage is a calling. Lastly to be fruitful and multiply. Family is a calling. There is order in the kingdom of God. 

Purpose is created. Adam is made with that purpose and every calling inside him and now God would have him live it out. We don't even meet Eve until a little after he has already walked out his purpose realizing he needs a partner, a companion. So as God lets him roam trying to find it at the perfect time He causes Adam to sleep and there God creates Eve with the EXACT same purpose because why? She was pulled out FROM HIM. We learn some valuable fact after that but I'll teach on that another time. I want to focus on the fact that as a married couple and then family the calling never changes. God knew that Adam couldn't do it alone and even after Eve he would still need a family to fulfill the calling that was in his heart. Raising Sons to do just as he does. Leaving a legacy and purpose. All key characteristics  to fulfilling just what he was assigned to do. 

The 'lay down your purpose for your family' is wrong in so many ways and I feel we've adapted to it because we have become a Christian body that's okay with mediocre lives. Let's get married because we both happen to go to the same church and both love God. But shortly after the marriage has started realize oh wait I have a purpose and a dream but because we didn't know it before hand we find ourself in a predicament. Marriage and family is intentional by God. However He brings about your family or how insane and impossible it may look we know God has intention for every story to serve a bigger purpose. You're created for more. In marriage or creating a family you should NEVER put aside the dreams or calling in your heart. That is why WHO you marry is so important. 

A few things a single person should ask them self: 

Who am I really? God what is my purpose and what passions me?

Where does my vision lead me and what should I be doing to fulfill the assignment on my life? 

What I am called to do does that include a partner? Is it something I could raise children up to succeed me? 

If I do marry what characteristics should I wait for? But most importantly where in my life should I submit to you? Not just to be an excellent servant to you but to my family as well. 

We are called to something and God has an incredible plan to get you to that destiny but it's our responsibility to walk in submission to Him and be reverent to where He leads us by His Holy Spirit. Who you have part of your life is important to fulfilling that journey. I hope you discover who you are and live the fulfilled life chasing God's purpose for your life with the one who God himself has created for you! 

Be blessed, Carissa Deann 

The man who finds a wife finds a treasure, and he receives favor from the LORD. Proverbs 18:22 
Who can find a virtuous and capable wife? She is more precious than rubies. Her husband can trust her, and she will greatly enrich his life. She brings him good, not harm, all the days of her life. 
Proverbs 31:10-12 

Then the LORD God made a woman from the rib, and he brought her to the man. Genesis 2:22 

Thursday, August 7, 2014

Walls That Speak

Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. 
I John 5:14 

Okay so I really love my room. I think it's beautifully me. I love the boys room. I think it looks like a boys room and it's fun and represents everything we are. I love my home, I have a very beautiful home. 

Today while cleaning The Lord challenged me. Actually He has challenged me a lot this year but today was one of those "Are you really ready Carissa?" moments. 

I have a dream in my heart and a purpose. Since my divorce I chased it full force. I determined in my heart that NOTHING would hold me back from it. I started the blog, I started teaching and preaching. I even lost ONE HUNDRED pounds. I was becoming everything I had dreamed. For two years I prayed about the things of God and got a little taste of what He had for me and then all of a sudden it stopped! He put in my heart to stop writing, stop teaching and stop preaching. I was soo angry! I yelled at God! I thought "I'm not going to go backwards Lord!" What I didn't realize was, I wasn't going backwards I was going forwards into a wilderness. Like the Israelites, there I failed, a lot! But also there I experienced His wonders and grace. In the wilderness I experienced His power. The wilderness, even though I was broken, was the place He began to RESTORE, and HEAL me. Prepare me REALLY for what was about to happen. He lead me out of my comfort zones to push me into destiny. 

Today the question He asked of me was if I was really ready? Was I really ready to live unabashedly? Really see the fulfillment of my dreams? Because those dreams I dreamed long ago, the ones I thought were the promise were actually just the beginning. He was only able to show me what I was able to believe for. But now, now that I have arrived He asked for me to empty my vessel because He wanted me to be filled! He wanted me to overflow but was I really ready? Was I really ready to walk in the impossible? Then as I sat in my pretty room He said: "Carissa, you've prayed for restoration to my purpose. You've prayed for a marriage that boldly lives for my kingdom. But what I'm about to give you, are you ready? You've loved alone and in your heart got comfortable with just you and I and I am pleased but it's time to stop speaking and it's time to believe." I was a little taken back I thought this whole time I was believing but I guess I was wrong. 

This whole time I'd boldly go before Him and pray for His will for mine and the boys' life but really had gotten used to the waiting that I stopped expecting. I got comfortable in my waiting season that even though I'd boldly proclaim what he spoke, in my heart I was holding back. 

Lisa Breveir said "say prayers that scare you" and for the first time today I thought "I'm terrified Lord" what if I was wrong? What if I'm foolish? What if..... And he said "say them anyway. My will will be done." 

So I ask you today. Are you really ready? Are you really ready to step into the impossible spiritual realm God has for your life and truly see His wonders? Are you ready, really, for prayers to be answered? Because SOMETHING is about to happen and He wants to know are you ready? 

And He said to me, Son of man, can these bones live? And I answered, O Lord God, You know!  Again He said to me, Prophesy to these bones and say to them, O you dry bones, hear the word of the Lord.  Ezekiel 37:3-4 

Then the nations which are left all around you shall know that I, the LORD, have rebuilt the ruined places and planted what was desolate. I, the LORD, have spoken it, and I will do it. ” Ezekiel 36:36 

Tuesday, August 5, 2014

The Mother of A Savior: Raising Warriors

Behold, children are a heritage from the Lord, the fruit of the womb a reward. [Deut. 28:4.] As arrows are in the hand of a warrior, so are the children of one's youth. Happy, blessed, and fortunate is the man whose quiver is filled with them! They will not be put to shame when they speak with their adversaries [in gatherings] at the [city's] gate. Psalm 127:3-5 

I've made it a habit to read the bible as the boys fall asleep... I usually start with a few chapters out of Joshua just for my own declaration over my kids. But also I will read somewhere in the New Testament. Tonight we read out of Mark. 

And He replied, Who are My mother and My brothers? Mark 3:33 

For most, this scripture is an exciting declaration that we are brothers and sisters of Christ. For me it kinda hits home as a mom, from Mary's perspective. Mary raised him always knowing in the back of her mind what he was purposed to do. Her calling was terrifying! Raise a boy who would become a man that is called to die. Never knowing when that day would come but suddenly it was here. I'm sure not getting to see her son often after he started out his 3 year ministry, she probably wanted every chance she got to hold Him. To others he was their healer and teacher but for her he was still a savior but also her son. As much as she knew this was the purpose, she loved him and that was her son. Her obedient heart rose above her flesh to let him go. 

As I sat there reading I just stopped to think. I wonder if she really knew all she was getting herself into when she declared so young "be unto me Lord as you will" we really?.. Know what we are getting ourself into when we say "Lord your will be done"?  

I have a willing heart to do God's will. In fact the only thing I am certain of is that I can't live a life without his presence or grace to do abundantly above what's normal. As willing as I am to obey and as often as I quote "Blessed is she who believed there would be a fulfillment of all that was said to her" Luke 1:45 ... SUDDENLY an aching pain came to my heart as I looked over to my son and he said "keep reading mom" 

Suddenly I asked my Lord am I really ready for this? I will do great things but my sons will do greater. I have a blazing trail ahead of me of incredible ministry and God's wonders. My husband and I will lead them into destiny but am I really ready for what's about to happen. The warriors they will become

Tears flood down my face as an overwhelming presence filled my heart. My words shook as I kept reading. Right then I knew what Mary meant when she said Be unto me. She was willing and I knew if she could, I could too. 

We are raising a generation of youth and as we are called they are called to greater. Are you ready?

Be blessed, Carissa Deann

Power Verses: 

For whoever does the things God wills is My brother and sister and mother! Mark 3:35 

Then Mary said, Behold, I am the handmaiden of the Lord; let it be done to me according to what you have said. And the angel left her. Luke 1:38 

For with God nothing is ever impossible and no word from God shall be without power or impossible of fulfillment. Luke 1:37 

And at the ninth hour Jesus cried with a loud voice, Eloi, Eloi, lama sabachthani?–which means, My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me [deserting Me and leaving Me helpless and abandoned]?

And Jesus uttered a loud cry, and breathed out His life. And the curtain [of the Holy of Holies] of the temple was torn in two from top to bottom. Mark 15:34, 37-38 

Friday, August 1, 2014

31Days Transformed: Day One a Transformed Life

And Ruth said, Urge me not to leave you or to turn back from following you; for where you go I will go, and where you lodge I will lodge. Your people shall be my people and your God my God. 
Ruth 1:16 

A capable, intelligent, and virtuous woman–who is he who can find her? She is far more precious than jewels and her value is far above rubies or pearls. Proverbs 31:10 

There is one woman and one woman only in the ENTIRE BIBLE that is called a woman of NOBLE character and that is Ruth. The P31 describes character, habits and disciplines we should strive to have but Solomon isn't talking about a particular woman or maybe he is... Maybe he is talking about his Great Grandma Ruth. The only woman known in the bible as noble...   

"Who can find a woman of noble character? For her WORTH is far more than rubies" 

Backround on Ruth is she was a Moabite. A people cursed by God to never set foot in the temple. Heritage running back to Lot who's DAUGHTER slept with him. Ruth was raised in an immoral belief system, who served other god's and a very corrupt heritage. A woman who didn't belong or fit in with Israelite woman nor should she ever, in man's eyes, belong in the heritage of Jesus.  Yet she was. 

Something happened to her. A transformation in her heart that knew where She came from may be unholy and unrighteousness and She may not know Naomi's God but she  want to. She needed too! She didn't want to look back. She didn't want to ever be that woman again. God saw a willing heart that could be transformed and worship him all the days of her life. God saw worth in a woman who was broken. 

A diamond was once a coal and the pressure transforms it into a diamond but it's value comes from being found. Being purified through the MANY cuts... Of noble character is worth far more than rubies and diamonds and Ruth was of Noble character. Do you suppose God cares less about your perfect journey and more about our transformed lives through adversity, failure and any other cut we may obtain in life? That what makes a woman so precious is her ability to overcome, her strength and her willingness to selflessly follow a God she barely knows but passionately say I will die where you die. I will live where you live. 

Woman of God you are more precious than rubies and your value surpasses a diamond. You were blood bought and found. Jesus is ready to pour out grace on your life and be transformed into something beautiful. Be transformed and restored to God's perfect will for you. But I ask, are you ready to surrender your past and focus on your purpose? 

Man sees a coal but God saw a diamond. Man sees an adulteress, the divorce, the sex out of marriage, the alcohol, the drugs, the lies, the gossip, the anger, and anything else tied to you but God sees His daughter. God sees worth and He said you were worth dying for. He sees the courageous woman you will become. And the person who will he worth finding such a prize. Don't devalue your journey woman. 

Be Blessed, Carissa Deann 

Power Verses:

A virtuous and worthy wife [earnest and strong in character] is a crowning joy to her husband, but she who makes him ashamed is as rottenness in his bones. 
 Proverbs 12:4 

He who finds a [true] wife finds a good thing and obtains favor from the Lord. 
Proverbs 18:22 

Sunday, July 6, 2014

Lord I don't Trust You

So this morning I was teaching in the toddler room and the lesson was about Esau and Jacob. You know how Rebecca helped Jacob trick Esau into selling his birthright for soup so they can trick Isaac into blessing Jacob over Esau his first born and favorite.  In the lesson it asked the teacher to read the passage and think about how it could apply to her/him to better teach their students with their life.... Made me think all day because really this passage applies to me in many ways and convicts many areas of my life BUT the root of it all would be trust. Driving home from church and looking at my many Rebecca and Esau moments I thought Lord I don't trust you or trust what you say. 

Esau was implosive and didn't think of the consequences.  I can be also. But what really pierced my heart was Rebecca... Rebecca is an incredible woman of God in the early chapters. She served a servant in a way most people wouldn't even serve their master. Rebecca was an incredible woman of God. But somewhere in her journey she freaked out and started to not trust God. 

Maybe she saw the circumstance of her husbands heart? Maybe she tried to interpret the word The Lord gave her and it consumed her. We don't know but with circumstance and trying to do something herself she didn't trust God and it brought chaos and division into their family. 

We learn even in our most shameful failures God is still kind and merciful and what he spoke to her DID come to pass but she quickly learned it had nothing to do with what Isaac could do but what God had planned. It had nothing to do what she thought at all. God had a plan and if she had just trusted his word one day it would all make sense.  

The Lord said to her, “Two nations are in your womb, and two peoples from within you will be separated; one people will be stronger than the other, and the older will serve the younger.” Genesis 25:23

Wednesday, June 11, 2014

The Amazing Race: Marriage On Purpose

Do you not know that those who run in a race all run, but ONE receives the prize? Run in such a way that you may obtain it. I Corinthians 9:24 

and the two shall become one flesh’; so then they are no longer two, but ONE flesh. Therefore what God has joined together, let not man separate.” Mark 10:8-9 

There is power in partnership. There's a reason the amazing race has two. The Lord knew from the beginning it isn't good for man to be alone. So he made a partner. A person to stand with you, run with you, hold you up and sometimes carry you. There is power in partnership. Today look at the partner God gave you and really see how much they make you a bigger person. How they compliment you and build you up. See their strengths. After that see how you do that for them. Think about the vision you have for your life and forget about the circumstance. Circumstance is temporary. A stepping stone to the big picture. 

TD Jakes said this "when you pray first God will either change them or you. Just because you are right doesn't mean it always has to be said. Trust the creator." I loved that. To many times I found myself just sharing what was on my heart. I was so certain I was right but being right didn't change hurt. Those "right" words caused pain. We have a big picture. Our marriages are for purpose. When we trust God with the big picture we are able to have the strength and endurance to overcome every hurdle and understand every obstical. With Michael I didn't understand that. My gift as a wife being a person of inflight became my enemy. My job isn't to change him. My job was to encourage him with the word, speak life and powerfully pray over him. 

The Lord gave wives a special gift, a frustrating gift but a special one. Adam was created and given a purpose. He roamed the earth to find a partner but couldn't find him. In his sleep, his unknowing, God created that perfect partner. He kept her secret and close to his heart. Poured into her insight and vision.showed her the Land and the man he would become. She knew him, them before he knew himself. God will let you see your husband for who he will become before he even sees himself. It's not to beat him into it or change him but for you to be the keeper of your purpose, your dreams and future. To trust God and pray continually. Everyday, every moment, every night. You are the keeper of the home with powerful gifts. Cover your home with the blood, your marriage with his peace. Remember go to the throne before the phone. There is purpose in partnership. 

And everyone who competes for the prize is temperate in all things. Now they do it to obtain a perishable crown, but we for an imperishable crown. Therefore I run thus: not with uncertainty. Thus I fight: not as one who beats the air. But I discipline my body and bring it into subjection, lest, when I have preached to others, I myself should become disqualified. 

I Corinthians 9:25-26

Monday, March 3, 2014

Square one, and I'm trying to be a Circle.

And while they were there, the time came for her delivery, 
Luke 2:6 

Sometimes I sit and think why does my life feel like it's going backwards? I have this dream in my heart and I want to move forward, clearly I see it there but why does everything seem to lead me back?

Lord had brought me back here many times. In 2009 we (my ex husband and I) lived with my parents and a very frustrating 2013 moving back home. Now single mom with two boys, divorced and moving back home. It wasn't my ideal plan to say the least. Though I am eternally grateful for my parents open home to my boys and I, I find myself felling disappointed, confused and frustrated. 

Coming back home for me was a major failure, a big mark on my forehead saying: this is my loser daughter who can't get her life together. Bad enough I have this audacious dream in my heart that feels so impossible and unattainable. Every day for a year I searched for a job and a way to get back on my own and every month seemed like one huge closed door. This frustration continued to grow and I found myself asking why? 

I was tired. Tired of trying to make it happen myself and tired of believing in a lost cause. It was a Thursday morning, I laid in my bed telling The Lord "I have no more fight left.Should I just accept this is my life? No more chasing dreams, no more writing, no more thoughts of my own home...just no more." 

My days are past, my purposes and plans are frustrated; even the thoughts (desires and possessions) of my heart [are broken off]. 
Job 17:11 

Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 
Matthew 11:29 

His soft voice filled my room and his tender touch filled my heart. Tears began to fill my eyes. 

"Lord I feel like I disappoint everyone I know, I feel like I disappoint you."

This is what the Lord says: “Stop at the crossroads and look around. Ask for the old, godly way, and walk in it. Travel its path, and you will find rest for your souls. But you reply, ‘No, that’s not the road we want!’ 
Jeremiah 6:16 

For the Lord of hosts has purposed, and who can annul it? And His hand is stretched out, and who can turn it back? 
Isaiah 14:27 

"But Lord I feel so Lost"

My word is a lamp to guide your feet and a light for your path. 
(Psalms 119:105)

Sitting there in silence. I remembered "just believe". Maybe this was the place I had to be all the time. A place where I could get no glory. A place of completely reliance on God to do a miracle. Believing when I had not fight left. She is blessed because she believed. 

There may be a circumstance that makes all things dreamed about seem impossible. You may be at square one. Again. But read Luke 1 a little closely, they were in Bethlehem, they were home. Sometimes God sends us to square one to birth a miracle, to inhabit a promise. Hold deeply that dream. Stand firm and when you are tired, rest. He has it all figured out. 

For nothing is impossible with God.  Luke 1:37

Be blessed, Carissa Deann

Power Verses:

God is not human, that he should lie, not a human being, that he should change his mind. Does he speak and then not act? Does he promise and not fulfill? 
Numbers 23:19

In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps. 
Proverbs 16:9 

For no matter how many promises God has made, they are “Yes” in Christ. And so through him the “Amen” is spoken by us to the glory of God. 
2 Corinthians 1:20 

“I am the Lord’s servant,” Mary answered. “May your word to me be fulfilled.” Then the angel left her. 
Luke 1:38